It seems that in the past couple of months, friends have tended to forget my existence.
Well, let's put it this way: we all crave attention, it's in out nature to crave attention. You seek it, it's the thrill of seeking it that keeps us active. But when we finally receive it, we reject it.
This time, i'm just rejecting it all.
I'm sick of keeping communication with those who claim they will get back to me. When they do get back to me, i'll be busy. Plain and simple. I don't want the attention anymore; I used to be the holding glue for many relationships. But that glue has worn off.
To those who call back when you finally have the time and didn't make a few minutes of room,
To those who i've tried to get ahold of on multiple occasions: consider yourself ignored. I'll fight the urge to respond to your wall post/call/text somehow. I'll respond to your invitation with a simple "busy."
It's a mix of frustration and yes, an upcoming busy season working retail that I will simply not let me get back with you.
I'll catch you on the flip side.
Sunday, November 8, 2009
Saturday, May 9, 2009
Look who has returned.
Hi there.
I'm absolutely in love with this album:
Ladytron - Velocifero
It seems to be my pick me up, no matter what mood i'm in. I don't know if it's the synthesizers, Mira's Bulgarian, Daniel's guitar, Helen's voice, and Reuben's keyboards. It's the mix that creates such a flow of sound with fluidity and keeps me going through the daily hells of life. My vocabulary is expanding as well, who knew I was still capable of learning more :)
It's time to go on a break from the norm. Summer couldn't come at a better time. It feels like all the professors are in on a conspiracy to shove what seems an unbearable load of homework to make us feel like we've finally earned our break. But guess what? I KNOW YOUR SECRET.
Well, maybe.
Wisconsin in a few weeks. I miss the corn fields, cow manure, trees, mosquitoes, and good ol' fashioned back country restaurants. Especially Dairy Maid. How I miss thee.
I'm absolutely in love with this album:
Ladytron - Velocifero
It seems to be my pick me up, no matter what mood i'm in. I don't know if it's the synthesizers, Mira's Bulgarian, Daniel's guitar, Helen's voice, and Reuben's keyboards. It's the mix that creates such a flow of sound with fluidity and keeps me going through the daily hells of life. My vocabulary is expanding as well, who knew I was still capable of learning more :)
It's time to go on a break from the norm. Summer couldn't come at a better time. It feels like all the professors are in on a conspiracy to shove what seems an unbearable load of homework to make us feel like we've finally earned our break. But guess what? I KNOW YOUR SECRET.
Well, maybe.
Wisconsin in a few weeks. I miss the corn fields, cow manure, trees, mosquitoes, and good ol' fashioned back country restaurants. Especially Dairy Maid. How I miss thee.
Friday, February 20, 2009
Thursday, January 15, 2009
NEW YEAR!?!?!
Yep, it's 2009 already. The start of a brand spankin' new year.
Working at RadioShack is good. I got my first paycheck already. Time to pay the bills. Ah snap, i need to change an appointment.
Nothing eventful, I start school on Wednesday, I'll be heading to UH again tomorrow to go see what books i need and then buy them online. HAHAHA take that overpriced books at the bookstore!
It's weird to be back home. Not as much privacy, no friends to live with. Sounds like i need to rent an apartment with some roommates.
Next semester. Maybe.
Working at RadioShack is good. I got my first paycheck already. Time to pay the bills. Ah snap, i need to change an appointment.
Nothing eventful, I start school on Wednesday, I'll be heading to UH again tomorrow to go see what books i need and then buy them online. HAHAHA take that overpriced books at the bookstore!
It's weird to be back home. Not as much privacy, no friends to live with. Sounds like i need to rent an apartment with some roommates.
Next semester. Maybe.
Friday, December 26, 2008
Sie ist ein Modell...
...and she looks good.
Most def.
quick update, i'm at the library stealing internet.
I applied for a job and radio shack, and guess what? I got hired.
I needed a job, and i've always wanted to work there.
i'm hungry.
I saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, really good but it's super long. It kept me entertained, though.
I also saw Yes man, very funny, but typical comedy with a romance in it. Not a romantic comedy, though.
Alright, time to go, go, go.
Most def.
quick update, i'm at the library stealing internet.
I applied for a job and radio shack, and guess what? I got hired.
I needed a job, and i've always wanted to work there.
i'm hungry.
I saw The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, really good but it's super long. It kept me entertained, though.
I also saw Yes man, very funny, but typical comedy with a romance in it. Not a romantic comedy, though.
Alright, time to go, go, go.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
senzafine.
Anyone know what that means?
I'm sitting around waiting for a ride to the post office, it's a mellow day out.
i'll be home tonight.
I'm going back to Texas for who knows how long.
Hopefully I can get some vacations in to other places so I don't go insane.
I know Wisconsin is in the schedule for May, fun times are planned ahead. I look forward to see people again that I haven't talked to in some time.
Errand time. gotta run.
I'm sitting around waiting for a ride to the post office, it's a mellow day out.
i'll be home tonight.
I'm going back to Texas for who knows how long.
Hopefully I can get some vacations in to other places so I don't go insane.
I know Wisconsin is in the schedule for May, fun times are planned ahead. I look forward to see people again that I haven't talked to in some time.
Errand time. gotta run.
Saturday, December 13, 2008
I got this from facebook
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 16 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 16 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you.
blah blah blah. You can't tag anyone on blogger. But here are some random facts about me:
1. Not many know that I have a good singing voice. I choose not to sing to not seem so egotistical. I got it from my dad who used to sing in small competitions, to the contrary, i think my mom is tone deaf.
2. I tend to not go to choir or solo concerts often because i am highly critical of singers. I tend not to share my opinions out loud. So, if I think you sound bad when you sing, I probably won't tell you.
3. I have a really strange phobia concerning small dots or anything resembling them. I've only met one other person with the same phobia.
4. One day I went to a play tryout hungover during high school. I managed to get a small role that had some major singing parts.
5. I like to travel. A lot. sometimes my bank accounts dwindle because of this.
6. I have not been overseas yet, and when I plan to it will be for long periods of time.
7. i don't look forward to birthdays. It means I have to act more responsible.
8. I don't smoke very often, and when I do it's because i'm really stressed or trashed. i can pick up the habit just as easily as I can drop it.
9. I've always wanted a dog or a cat, but i've never had one because of lack of space in the house. I plan to have one once I settle down.
10. The idea of marriage scares me sometimes. Not because of the actual commitment, but because of the rings. I think of marriage rings as negative bindings. Why not just get married without having to flash a piece of gold? If I do get a ring, I would probably just wear it around my neck.
11. I don't make friends easily. I hate going to socials, I'm usually quite because I don't think there's much to say. When I do make friends, I tend to put everything on the line for a friend. It isn't easy to say goodbye to the real friends that i've made.
12. I don't believe in God. We had a big falling out. I'm willing to reconcile when things get better.
13. i'm immune to homesickness. I've adjusted to living away from home, and hopefully it'll prepare me when it comes time to live abroad.
14. I didn't see my mom cry until i was about 6 years old, when she found out that her brother had died. I, on the other hand, can still manage to throw a hissy fit when seen as necessary.
15. For some strange reason, i'm pretty good with basic technology. I used to like math and science and thought about training for a career in one or the other. However, calculus made me think twice about that idea.
16. I have good navigational skills. I can tell where north, south, east, and west are without much hesitation. I can remember how to get back to some place because I remember random shit like that sometimes.
+1 more for extra kicks:
17. I can't stand it when people complain. STFU or GTFU.
blah blah blah. You can't tag anyone on blogger. But here are some random facts about me:
1. Not many know that I have a good singing voice. I choose not to sing to not seem so egotistical. I got it from my dad who used to sing in small competitions, to the contrary, i think my mom is tone deaf.
2. I tend to not go to choir or solo concerts often because i am highly critical of singers. I tend not to share my opinions out loud. So, if I think you sound bad when you sing, I probably won't tell you.
3. I have a really strange phobia concerning small dots or anything resembling them. I've only met one other person with the same phobia.
4. One day I went to a play tryout hungover during high school. I managed to get a small role that had some major singing parts.
5. I like to travel. A lot. sometimes my bank accounts dwindle because of this.
6. I have not been overseas yet, and when I plan to it will be for long periods of time.
7. i don't look forward to birthdays. It means I have to act more responsible.
8. I don't smoke very often, and when I do it's because i'm really stressed or trashed. i can pick up the habit just as easily as I can drop it.
9. I've always wanted a dog or a cat, but i've never had one because of lack of space in the house. I plan to have one once I settle down.
10. The idea of marriage scares me sometimes. Not because of the actual commitment, but because of the rings. I think of marriage rings as negative bindings. Why not just get married without having to flash a piece of gold? If I do get a ring, I would probably just wear it around my neck.
11. I don't make friends easily. I hate going to socials, I'm usually quite because I don't think there's much to say. When I do make friends, I tend to put everything on the line for a friend. It isn't easy to say goodbye to the real friends that i've made.
12. I don't believe in God. We had a big falling out. I'm willing to reconcile when things get better.
13. i'm immune to homesickness. I've adjusted to living away from home, and hopefully it'll prepare me when it comes time to live abroad.
14. I didn't see my mom cry until i was about 6 years old, when she found out that her brother had died. I, on the other hand, can still manage to throw a hissy fit when seen as necessary.
15. For some strange reason, i'm pretty good with basic technology. I used to like math and science and thought about training for a career in one or the other. However, calculus made me think twice about that idea.
16. I have good navigational skills. I can tell where north, south, east, and west are without much hesitation. I can remember how to get back to some place because I remember random shit like that sometimes.
+1 more for extra kicks:
17. I can't stand it when people complain. STFU or GTFU.
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