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7 hours is way too much time to sleep through

I find myself looking forward to the readings that we're given in Theater class. It finally hit me that filling my time with educational pastimes such as doing my homework or catching up about how thousands of people will lose their jobs in the upcoming months due to the US's shotty economy, makes time pass quicker. Lately for theater class, we've been assigned to do readings from Nineteenth-Century Drama through the Turn of the Twentieth Century. This stuff is amazing! So far i've managed to get through Henrik Ibsen's A Doll House and Oscar Wilde's The Importance of Being Earnest. Both are magnificent! Don't fool me with this crap about how much you love Shakespeare; everyone knows his plays are not only broke through in Elizabethan theater, but they also serve as sleeping pills.
To be honest, I was dreading taking theater, but I found a new appreciation for this often downgraded subject. Don't get me wrong, I like watching plays, I just don't want to be on stage.
College does a lot of stuff to you...

PS- the italic lettering was totally an accident. It looks pretty in draft.

Don't go towards the white light! You'll fall and break your hip.

So this week i'm trying out this thing called working out. Along with it comes "eating healthy". So i'm cutting out unnecessary fats. Like cheezburgrs.
It's Good Friday, although Jesus DIED today. I don't see anything really good about it...
May the power of the lord be within in you on this holy day.
Remember not to eat meat...
Holy Holidays (although holy is already implied in that word...) are the most interesting to observe. You can watch everyone just go crazy...holy style, and also in an organized matter.
Speaking of trips, I went to the King of Prussia Mall on Palm Sunday (har har). But I most say, I was not impressed at all. To put it in one sentence, it's an architecturally aesthetic building, but it's as if someone decided to fill it up with expensive stores.
In next week's agenda: Legally Blonde the Musical on Broadway. Expect pictures from that event! :)

A letter to you:

If I seem isolated one of these days, blame it on the genes.
I'm sorry if I go off easily on you. I just need time to be alone. I just need the time to myself to reflect on the meaning of my existence. Yes, it's true, I've hit rock bottom. Anything can trigger this train of thoughts, if you can call them that. from the sarcastic remark to the sad part of the movie, anything can trigger it. Don't worry, it wasn't your fault; I just need more time to realize that people don't have the time for me, and that I just want the attention. It'll be a long time before I can process this idea and face the fact that i'm still looking for my savior, and that you don't quite meet the standards. My savior will be someone that i've been truly looking forward to meeting, someone who I don't need to say a word before they can completely comprehend what i'm going through and know exactly what to do, to pull me out of this pandemonium in my head.

Don't worry about me shooting up the school, it's not the attention that I want to get for 15 seconds as I later proceed to blow my brains out; it's not that. I just need someone whom I can't be ashamed to be in front of. Fortunately for you, I haven't found you yet. In the end, I think i'll be doing more damage to you instead of benefiting myself.

In the meantime, just let me be. If I tell you I can't tell you something, I mean it. Don't try to get to the bottom of it. In the end, we'll just be separated by fate and you won't remember me or my problems anymore. It'll be then that it will be the birth of a new regret to me. I don't mean for these comments to usher you away; it's not that I think you're not strong enough, it's that you won't be able to fully understand me. No one will. I don't need a fauxmate or a soulmate right now. I need the scary thoughts of the future ahead of me that'll cradle my sanity straight to an asylum.

It's not you, it's me.

HAPPY ST. PATRICK'S DAY!

well Herrrrooowww

The pope moved St. Patrick's day 2 days back so it wouldn't coincide with Holy Week.

Har, har, big mistake Mr. Holy Man.

guess what I did last night? No, it doesn't involve feasting on corned beef.
I regret nothing, although I do need to learn from my mistakes. And I also lost my cell phone battery, so i'm cellphoneless.
I have a few weeks left here. in about 5 weeks or so (eep!) i'm making my way back home. I decided to work at a summer program at my old school this summer. Let's see how that works out.
Well, time to do work. Peace out.

Finally! A chance to sit down...

Spring break came and went; it was mostly chilly when I was in Boston. But I can't really complain, i'm not really able to visit any other time of the year if I don't want to spend a lot on a place to stay. My friend T-dawg was nice enough to let me stay at Boston University with her roommate. It was free, so that was sweet. I headed out on Friday, but it turns out it was a very bad idea. I got a ride from someone I met through Craigslist, (before you freak out and say EWW!!! why did you do that?!?! I really had no other options because I suck at maintaining a proper budget. So, I went for the next best thing which was a FREE ride to NYC.) I got a free dinner and my bus ticket was paid so that I could go to Boston...so it wasn't as bad as you may think. Now, Friday was a bad day to head out because it was snowing terribly. It took about 6-7hours to get to NYC rather than the usual 4 hours. We stopped at a chinese buffet, by other than that, the ride was pretty uneventful. There was a car that turned over that we passed when we were on the road for an hour. I can't tell you how many cop cars we passed. We got to NYC at about 11:30pm, right after the last chinese bus left for Boston. Greyhound shut down their buses because of the snow storm, and the nest bus wasn't leaving until 7:00am the next morning. So I slept over at my ride's place, which was a small room in a basement in a house in NYC. I slept soundly although I usually don't sleep so much when i'm in a bed that's not my own.
So I woke up the next day around 7:30am...I was supposed to take the 6am chinatown bus, but the person who I was staying with didn't want to wake me up because I was snoring. haha. Well, we were off by 7:45am and we went to go see when the bus left and he went to go buy a ticket for me--- which totally caught me off guard. We went to go get diner in little Italy, and it turns out we went to an expensive place...it was called Ferrara. I got a pannoli and some orange juice...really good, but too sweet for a morning treat. My ride ordered a cake and an espresso. He ended up giving me the whole cake, which was delicious. Everything was great, and by 9:30 am I was on my way to Boston! That same night I made some decisions...and I don't regret them because I had tons of fun calling everyone :). Although I don't remember half the things that happened. But it was all in good fun. The next morning we went for breakfast..or rather brunch at a really yummy place. T-Dawg ate most of my muffin. =[ On monday I did the freedom trail, but most of the places I wanted to see, like Paul Revere's house and the Old North Church were closed. incredibly lame, the weather was fantastic though. On Tuesday I went to MIT and Harvard, i spent way more time than I should've at Harvard, and I thought it was a smart idea to walk to MIT from Harvard, but what I didn't count on was that it was going to rain on me halfway, so it was kind of pointless to take the T to MIT. Although the highlight of my day was that I ate at an Indian buffet...it was so good! It was like being at my indian friend's house again. haha.
Wednesday was uneventful because it was cold and i just decided to sleep instead of go out. So I stayed an extra day and went to the Sam Adams brewery on Thursday. Everyone should go there if you're ever in Boston. It was over in Jamaica Plains...SCARY! i know...right?
Well, I left on Friday :( I got to wander around NYC for a little bit before my bus to Williamsport left. it snowed AGAIN on friday, and I had a fun time walking from the bus station to my dorm. I slipped once, but it didn't matter, Williamsport is a ghost town without all the students...it's kind of sad, really.
Well, anyway, i've been wondering whether I should stay at Lycoming or transfer somewhere close to home? I already decided that Astronomy isn't the subject for me...otherwise things would be different now. I decided on Political Science which is something I am more passionate about. It's sad i'm dropping astro, but I might pick it as a minor. Which reminds me...I need to declare next year. I have until the end of sophomore year to do it, but I want to declare now. Then I have time to plan for the future. Sweet.
Well, i'll probably continue on my thoughts later on...right now i'm in such a great mood, i don't think anything can bring me down :).
cheers!